A lot has happened in the last month since I posted

Four days after Beatlemania, I was in the ER. I missed a concert while in the ER. I was released and referred to The Hunstman Cancer Institute. I was then seen at The Huntsman and talked to about the results of my pathology test - Endometrial Carcinoma. Yep, it's cancer. And pretty aggressive too. Surgery is the only option. But I refuse to lose my uterus. So, we did an MRI. Once again, I was in the the hospital for the 3rd time in less than 3 weeks. It took them a while to get me the results of the MRI - tumor. Inoperable except to remove the whole organ. They don't want to disturb the tumor. Chemo and Radiation are not an option either. So, I am changing everything in my life. Taking all the negative out and only letting in the positive. I created a cancer blog so that I can write my most deep, dark fears and such but it's under an assumed name. There are some people in my life that have access to this blog address that shouldn't have that information (i.e. boss, co-workers, ex boyfriend [Jesse]) No offense meant to my co-workers but there are just some things of this that shouldn't be divulged, especially my ex-boyfried, Jesse (who just can't seem to leave me alone even though he is now married and has a family!).